God always know what he is doing....

Well all I can do is laugh right now... God had a plan, like always :)
Here is our families update, the morning after we found out our baby was not going to make it (really there was no baby there), I got a call at 8am from  our foster care placement team, she said she had an infant to place with us, we would need to go to Denver to pick her up.. I got off the phone shocked, Lord what are you thinking here? Called my husband and we prayed....
The next morning I had my D&C and then headed to Denver that evening, we spend the weekend in Denver and did not know what we had before us. I had heard that she was a cranky baby and had some problems, to say the least I was prepared for the worst.
I spent all weekend with her before we brought her home. I was amazed, she is a fighter and  an angel. We are believing for a full recovery and a healthy, thriving baby girl!

God is so good and we think He has the perfect plan for our life if we obey and say "Yes Lord"

Lost baby Allmon

Well last month when I went to the midwife, we thought I was about 7-8weeks along in my pregnancy. Until we went to the ultrasound and saw that I was only about 5weeks. Right there I knew something was wrong. But I was told not to worry and that everyone ovulates different and thats why we were off. I was told to come back in 4weeks. Although I thought something was going to be wrong we stood on Gods word and prayed and had everyone around us pray. Well today was that 4weeks, and as I sat in the waiting room I prayed and prayed and prayed. They did the ultrasound and well there was no baby. Nothing was growing and I heard those words I dreaded to hear. "Honey you have had a MISCARRIAGE, your sack has collapse and there is no baby growing" Surprisingly I took things really well and set up my appointment for my D&C (dilation and curettage). Everyone in the office was saying how sorry they  and I really did not want to hear it. 

Finally I think everything sank in and I started to cry. At first I was doing some what OK, I knew it was not my fault, nor Gods, nor anyone else. But then as it sank in more I started to get angry. Why would God let this happen? We prayed So much and so did every else around us.  What did I do wrong? Was this my punishment for an earlier mistake? Then I got made at the people who have caused SO much stress in our lives the last couple of months. If only they had left me alone, If only we had never met them. 

Once I sat back and listen to my self I knew I had to stop. I knew this was not Gods fault nor anyone else. I did not need someone  to blame. I need to lean fully on my Lord knowing that I will not find all the answers and that this is only going to make us stronger. 

So RIP baby Allmon you will ALWAYS be in our hearts and minds!! May God make us stronger and better people. 

MOMMY & DADDY LOVE YOU!

Its 2011!!!!

Its 2011 Everyone!!!! So far we have started off the new year with a great start!! J's bio-parental rights are being terminated. We are headed into the home stretch for him to ours. We have chosen to hang out with better friends and let some friends go.... God has such a great plan for us for 2011....

We will be growing closer to Him and leaning on all His greatness, planning to make new friends that will being us closer to God and lift us up not bring us down. I have great expectations for 2011.... So here we go....