Wonderful Christmas...Ready for a new year

2010 Christmas I would have too say has been one of the best!! I am so blessed to have such a great family and friends.... This year we had some much needed family time, A blessed 3day of Christmas.
With everyone so excited about the baby to come in August, and J is going to be a true Allmon here in a couple of month we have so much to be thankful for.
As this is now the last week of 2010 I have taken some time to look back at all our ups and downs of the year.. WOW God has brought us through a lot and I truly believe we have grown in the last year :) With me carrying the 2010 Promise for God (read the other blogs) And us almost to the end of this battle with J.
I am expecting a lot out if 2011, New baby, New son, Hopefully a move to a new town, and to be debt free (at least from credit cards...and of course planning on going where ever God want us to do and go....

I will be praying in the new year and ready to make the changes God has for us....
May everyone have a blessed new year!! Happy 2011

Feeling like I am loosin it.....

AWWWW.......... making a baby is hard work... I have no energy or ambition to do anything.. on top of all that J has really started to talk bad and just miss behaving... Being a mom is hard work ...
To day I feel as though I have lost it!!! I gave Johnny the chance to clean his room ALL day and then I just snapped :( He now have NO toys, they are all in trash bags and about to be thrown away.....
I know he knows how to clean his room..... UGH

I do not know what else to do.....

The best gift of all :)

If you have been up to date with our little family at all you will find that we have been trying for a little one of our own for almost a year now....WELL  about a week ago I took three test and they all said RACHEL YOU ARE  PREGNANT :) SURPRISE!!!!The best Christmas gift of all :)
So the next couple of months are going to be CRAZY.... January holds promise for J's Biological parents parental rights to be terminated...  If everything goes as planed (praying it will) It will only be a couple months after that, that we can truly name him an Allmon :)
How exciting :) God is so amazing and faithful.
At the beginning of 2010 I got a letter from Joice Meyers Ministry, stating how she believed that 2010 was the year God says "I promise". After reading the letter I decided to stand on that, and that 2010 was going to  be the year that we were finally going to get Pregnant.... Well its December and I also gave up hope lol But God sure knew what He was going and here we are, REALLY close to the end of 2010, But caring God "Promise"
THANK YOU GOD  

Do u "get it"

WOW, to follow Gods will can be such a blessing.... I have had Forster care and adoption on my heart for such a long time... But I have never fully prayed it out to see what God wants us to REALLY do... I am now So excited for what God has in our future and I know that when the road get tough it is then you just HAVE to keep your eyes on the prize.........
GOD U R SO GOOD and may we learn to ALWAYS keep our eyes on you!!



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Update....

So I have just realized that I have not been on top of it for updating this thing. Sorry about that. So here is our little family's up date... Our baby girl has moved on to a permanent home. We are ok with it... Although it is heart breaking and we miss her like crazy, we know this is Gods will. I had such peace about it and we will be able to see her often as well.
As for our little man, We are waiting on the Perinatal rights Termination hearing. We are looking forward to raising this little man in the love and nurture of the Lord. Very excited and anxious for whats to come the next couple of month.......

The Waiting Game......

I have found that with foster care you are playing that waiting game on a day to day basses. It can be so stressful and heart wrenching. At this moment we are planing that game with our little girl. Waiting to hear if we get the honor of  raising her as our own.
Its times like this that you have to FROG (fully rely on God) and  keep our head up and PRAY daily!The thought of loosing her kills me. Knowing that we may not be able to see her grow up and raise her in the Lord.
So I stand here today in the shelter of the Lord! Praying for our little girl and for the peace of mind that I can know God will keep her safe and she can be raised in a Godly home with a life full of love and grow to have a heart for the Lord!!

B4 I was Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom

Lost

I have realized  how hard parenting is. How do foster parents do it? We get the kids that have been through a lot and we are suppose to get them back on track. HELP  How do you all do it! The bad attitude and  terrible fits, the not listening and telling you no...... WOW I have found myself sitting in a closet and crying, trying not to loose it. What are we suppose to do? What do you do when you feel like you are going to loose it? We are suppose to be the better parents, be the role models to other parents. UGH its so hard!! I do not know what I would do with out GOD and my loving husband!!!!   PRAYER is the key!!!

Waiting...........

There are a lot of things in life that we have to wait on. I always wonder why. As Foster parents we have decided to be the "concurrent" home  for one of our kidos. Now we are to sit and wait and see where the case goes. But like always we pray that parents will "get it to together" b4 there "dead line".
As we sit and wait for the decision to be made we are also trying for our own kidos. I never new that this proses could be a long one. I guess for some reason I thought it would be quick and easy. I was wrong! We are going on our 6th month of 'trying". I have had times where I have wanted to just give up. Just decide to do JUST foster care and not put us through the heartache of the month to month waiting. UNTIL today, my husband came home to tell me that one of our friends (who did not really ever want kids) was prego! WELL hearing that I am back on my bandwagon on "trying" Hoping the wait will not be any longer.........

Days like these. .....

There will be days like these.....
When you do not want to get out of bed, face the world, face the messy house that you left to clean for today. Your not in the mood to answer the phone, talk to the landlord, or deal with your kids bad attitudes today.... But then you hear that little voice that says "mommy I love you"
In a blink of an eye your day has changed you know why you are here and how precious life is as you say "I love you too baby"

Who made this up???

So 7months in to being a part of the Foster Care system I have found out how many problems I have with the system. It blows my mind. I would love to know how this whole foster care thing got started and who in the world set up the rules. When down the line did we decide that someone else can play God and decide what is best for our children. Why is it ok for someone who barley knows the kids or even sees them to decide what is best for them and their well being? Why is it that someone can say you never get to see your kids again!! UGH
Going to spend some time and prayer and let God give me the answer! He is the only one that can truly change things and show us what He wants us to do! God what have you called us to do with this, How can I be part of something I disagree with so strongly?

Called

God has called us to take in His little ones, who do not have a home and need a safe place to rest their heads.Along with raising our own.
We are called to raise up the next generation of God warriors. To fight for what is right and stand behind His word. Some may ssay that raising children is easy. But is totally the opposite, If you really truly think about it you are teaching these little ones what is right, how they should live, laugh, and love. To shelter them from all the evil in this wold and then teach them how to shelter themselves under Gods wing.
What a load to put on someone. To know that you are responsible for what they learn and do. WOW Thank God for His grace, guidance, forgiveness and the Holly Spirit. Because without that I do not know that we could do it!

Mama Prayer

Dear Lord,
It's such a hectic day,

With little time to stop and pray,

For Life's been anything but calm,

Since You called me to be a Mom,

Running errands, matching socks,

Building dreams with matching blocks,

Cooking, cleaning, finding shoes,

And other stuff that children lose,

Fitting lids on bottled bugs,

Wiping tears and giving hugs,

A stack of last week's mail to read,

So where's the quiet time I need?

Yet, when I steal a moment, Lord,

Just at the sink or ironing board,

To ask the blessings of Your grace,

I see them, in my small one's face,

That you have blessed me

All the while --

And I stoop to kiss

That precious smile.