Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Waiting Game......

I have found that with foster care you are playing that waiting game on a day to day basses. It can be so stressful and heart wrenching. At this moment we are planing that game with our little girl. Waiting to hear if we get the honor of  raising her as our own.
Its times like this that you have to FROG (fully rely on God) and  keep our head up and PRAY daily!The thought of loosing her kills me. Knowing that we may not be able to see her grow up and raise her in the Lord.
So I stand here today in the shelter of the Lord! Praying for our little girl and for the peace of mind that I can know God will keep her safe and she can be raised in a Godly home with a life full of love and grow to have a heart for the Lord!!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

B4 I was Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom